Motherhood Changed My Life
Stating motherhood changed my life may be the most obvious statement, ever. Is there a parent who would not agree to that statement? Everything changes when a child arrives. The amount of sleep each night, the routine, the conversations, they all change. The difference in dynamics can be overwhelming, but I highly underestimated how I would change.
Sweating the Small Stuff
When I became a mother, it seemed everything mattered. What was my child eating? Did she sleep? Was her routine consistent? Does her cough warrant a trip to the doctor? Is she developing like she should? Do we have the supplies we need? Am I ignoring my husband? Have I eaten? When was the last time I slept through the night? Why is her nose running? Did she just say her first word? Have I prayed for her? The questions ran continuously through my mind. They never stopped.
Although, these days the questions revolve more around the state of her heart and mind. What kind of friends is she making? Is she growing and learning? Does she know how much God loves her? What choices will she make? Little matters, big matters, they all matter. I am invested in her health, her state of mind, her well being, and the condition of her heart. No area of her life receives an “oh, whatever” response. Indifference is no longer a part of my life. It all matters.
Learning to Take a Time Out
Time outs are no longer punishment, they are a welcomed reprieve. However, I am the one in need of a time-out every now and then. When my brain is overloaded, or my frustrations are at a boiling point, taking a time-out is my best option. Becoming a parent has taught me, more than ever, the importance of my reactions and responses. My stress and anxiety becomes my child’s. Our emotions are tied to one another, as much as I sometimes hate that. My husband and I are the ones who set the tone of our home. A time-out is vital in allowing us to fill our home with joy.
Staying Rooted In Faith
Becoming a parent has taught me more about faith than any sermon or Bible study ever has. I feel the weight and importance of the life given to us to care for. While holding my child in my arms, I have become overwhelmed by love only to realize my capacity to love is so small compared to that of the Father’s. He has asked me to trust Him to care for her, to guide her. Daily, I must surrender what I think is right to His will. As I watch my daughter praise Him, or hear her pray, I understand why Jesus said, “let the children come to me.” She asks deep, probing questions, and expects an answer. I see small miracles in daily activity. More importantly, I have learned how to be still, to listen, and to be fully present. Every day, I watch God work as my child grows.
Life Has Changed
Yes, life has changed since becoming a parent. There is more laughter in our house now. I have never known life to be so vibrant. Where routine used to rule the day, learning to be flexible has become a necessity. Becoming a mother helped me to love more fiercely, to protect more intentionally, and to enjoy the sound of giggles. Also, I am no longer the most important character in my own story. Yes, I have learned the value of caring for myself, but it is now because I want to be able to care for my family better. Motherhood changed my life, it has changed me, for the better.
How has parenthood changed you? What lessons have you learned about God, life, or yourself?