What do you want?
“What do you want? I mean, what is the one thing you truly want?” My husband and I were in the middle of a late night discussion when he asked the question. It is a good question. There is weight and depth to it. The answer would reveal so much, the heart, motivation, and mindset. And yet, I could not answer. In the moment, the best I could do was look at him and say, “that is a really great question.”
What did Paul want?
In Phillipians 3:10-11 (NIV), Paul states:
I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.
I want to want to know Christ. But, do I? Sometimes I wonder if my heart’s desire is to know Christ, his power, and his sufferings, or to simply be known by others. There are days I question if I am more fascinated with my own reflection than whether or not I am reflecting Christ.
Paul goes on to say:
12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Phillipians 3:12-14, NIV)
Paul chose to press on. I often stop in frustration and doubt. And yet, I want the prize God has for me. Or, do I want the glory that really belongs to Him? Yes, I question my own motivation. I question the integrity behind my own actions. When deciding on the next, best step, I wonder if the path I am on is benefiting only myself, or those I am called to serve.
Oh Father, give me eyes like Paul to see heavenward.
What do I truly want?
I want my Father to be proud of me. What do I truly want? I want to know Him, and make Him known. It is my desire to use every gift He has given me until my very last day. Yes, I want to use up every bit of power and strength He has given me until there is nothing left. Grace. I want my life to be an example of grace, His grace. Ultimately, I know anything accomplished in my life is grace.
Also, I want to be the help mate my husband most needs. I want to raise my child to be assured of the calling God has on her life, and I want her to be an influencer for the Kingdom. And, I want my arms to be strong enough to hold others in encouraging embraces.
What do I want most? I want to walk faithfully on the path God has laid before me, never wavering, never wandering. I want to remember where I belong.
20 But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, 21 who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body. (Philippians 3:20-21, NIV)
Friend, what do you want?
Now, I ask you, “What do you want? What do you truly want?” I want to hear your answers, and I want to help in any way possible. Know that I am praying for you. I am praying for you to obtain your heart’s desire, God’s desire for you. I am cheering you on. Let’s press on, together.